The Beggar Boy at Christ’s Christmas Tree – Fyodor Dostoevsky – The Saddest Story

Christmas Past

Christmas Past

 

It came out of nowhere, an intense wave of nostalgia, which made me gasp.

A memory so vivid it could have been yesterday.

It was a book, “The Mammoth Wonder Book for Children”; a huge doorstep of a book, as books were in those days, you see, the book had belonged to my mother when she was a child.

 

 

My mother

My mother

 

The book was hard-backed, with a faded-red, cloth cover and at some point, I imagine, there must have been a dust jacket.

The pages were as thin as onion paper, yellowed, covered with tiny print and here and there, between the glorious colour plates, it had the occasional black and white, woodblock illustrations.

 

The Mammoth Wonder Book for Children. John R Crossland & JM Parrish Published by Odhams Press, London, 1935

The Mammoth Wonder Book for Children. John R Crossland & JM Parrish Published by Odhams Press, London, 1935

 

There were other books which had belonged to our parents when they were children; Enid Blyton’s “Book of Bunnies”, telling the tales of Binkle and Flip, two mischievous rabbits was one of them.

 

Enid Blyton “Book of Bunnies” 1923

Enid Blyton “Book of Bunnies” 1923

 

Enid Blyton’s “Book of Bunnies” belonged to my father, as did “The Song of Hiawatha” by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, a book I never really liked.

 

My father

My father

 

I loved the “The Water-Babies, though; “A Fairy Tale for a Land Baby” by the Reverend Charles Kingsley, a story about Tom, a chimney sweep, who drowned, and became a water baby.

“The Water Babies” was kept at my grandmother’s house, oh how I longed to take it home with me, however, that was not allowed; strict times!

I managed to find a picture of the exact same edition, the illustrations were wonderful.

 

“The Water Babies” Charles Kingsley

“The Water Babies”. Charles Kingsley

 

No book though, at this point of my life, (I must have been around six or seven years old) was as fascinating to me, as the big red book of my mother’s;

“The Mammoth Wonder Book for Children” John R Crossland & JM Parrish.

 

The Mammoth Wonder Book for Children. John R Crossland & JM Parrish Published by Odhams Press, London, 1935

The Mammoth Wonder Book for Children. John R Crossland & JM Parrish Published by Odhams Press, London, 1935

 

 It was one of those compendiums, a collection of short children’s stories of which I can only recall one story from the book.

A story I read, over and over again, I knew it by heart and more or less, still do.

It was such a sad story, so sad, I would cry and cry whilst reading it.

My mother would chide me, tell me to put it down but I read it, probably every day!

I never knew who had written the story; I had never “Googled” it, until today.

I remembered the story clearly, I just wanted to sit and read it again.

Would you believe it, at the age of about seven, I was reading Dostoyevsky!

 

Portrait of Fedor Dostoyevsky by Vasily Perov. 1872

Portrait of Fedor Dostoyevsky by Vasily Perov. 1872

 

The title of the story is “The Beggar Boy at Christ’s Christmas Tree”, in my mother’s book, it was called; “The child at Christ’s Christmas Tree”, of that I’m sure but yes, it is the same story.

I found the short story and here it is, read it and if you are anything like me, have a little cry.

 

 

The Beggar Boy at Christ’s Christmas Tree by Fyodor Dostoevsky, 1876


Translated by Constance Garnett

 

The Young Beggar by Bartolome Esteban Murillo, 1645-1650.

The Young Beggar by Bartolome Esteban Murillo, 1645-1650.

 


“I am a novelist, and I suppose I have made up this story. I write “I suppose,” though I know for a fact that I have made it up, but yet I keep fancying that it must have happened on Christmas Eve in some great town in a time of terrible frost.

I have a vision of a boy, a little boy, six years old or even younger. This boy woke up that morning in a cold damp cellar. He was dressed in a sort of little dressing-gown and was shivering with cold. There was a cloud of white steam from his breath, and sitting on a box in the corner, he blew the steam out of his mouth and amused himself in his dullness watching it float away.

But he was terribly hungry. Several times that morning he went up to the plank bed where his sick mother was lying on a mattress as thin as a pancake, with some sort of bundle under her head for a pillow.

 

 

How had she come here? She must have come with her boy from some other town and suddenly fallen ill. The landlady who let the “concerns” had been taken two days before the police station, the lodgers were out and about as the holiday was so near, and the only one left had been lying for the last twenty-four hours dead drunk, not having waited for Christmas.

In another corner of the room a wretched old woman of eighty, who had once been a children’s nurse but was now left to die friendless, was moaning and groaning with rheumatism, scolding and grumbling at the boy so that he was afraid to go near her corner.

He had got a drink of water in the outer room, but could not find a crust anywhere, and had been on the point of waking his mother a dozen times. He felt frightened at last in the darkness: it had long been dusk, but no light was kindled. Touching his mother’s face, he was surprised that she did not move at all, and that she was as cold as the wall. “It is very cold here,” he thought.

He stood a little, unconsciously letting his hands rest on the dead woman’s shoulders, then he breathed on his fingers to warm them, and then quietly fumbling for his cap on the bed, he went out of the cellar. He would have gone earlier, but was afraid of the big dog which had been howling all day at the neighbor’s door at the top of the stairs. But the dog was not there now, and he went out into the street.

Mercy on us, what a town! He had never seen anything like it before. In the town from he had come, it was always such black darkness at night. There was one lamp for the whole street, the little, low-pitched, wooden houses were closed up with shutters, there was no one to be seen in the street after dusk, all the people shut themselves up in their houses, and there was nothing but the howling all night.

But there it was so warm and he was given food, while here—oh, dear, if he only had something to eat! And what a noise and rattle here, what light and what people, horses and carriages, and what a frost! The frozen steam hung in clouds over the horses, over their warmly breathing mouths; their hoofs clanged against the stones through the powdery snow, and everyone pushed so, and—oh, dear, how he longed for some morsel to eat, and how wretched he suddenly felt. A policeman walked by and turned away to avoid seeing the boy.

There was another street—oh, what a wide one, here he would be run over for certain; how everyone was shouting, racing and driving along, and the light, the light! And what was this? A huge glass window, and through the window a tree reaching up to the ceiling; it was a fir tree, and on it were ever so many lights, gold papers and apples and little dolls and horses; and there were children clean and dressed in their best running about the room, laughing and playing and eating and drinking something. And then a little girl began dancing with one of the boys, what a pretty little girl! And he could hear the music through the window.

 

 

The boy looked and wondered and laughed, though his toes were aching with the cold and his fingers were red and stiff so that it hurt him to move them.

And all at once the boy remembered how his toes and fingers hurt him, and began crying, and ran on; and again through another window-pane he saw another Christmas tree, and on a table cakes of all sorts—almond cakes, red cakes and yellow cakes, and three grand young ladies were sitting there, and they gave the cakes to any one who went up to them, and the door kept opening, lots of gentlemen and ladies went in from the street.

The boy crept up, suddenly opened the door and went in. oh, how they shouted at him and waved him back! One lady went up to him hurriedly and slipped a kopeck into his hand, and with her own hands opened the door into the street for him! How frightened he was. And the kopeck rolled away and clinked upon the steps; he could not bend his red fingers to hold it right. the boy ran away and went on, where he did not know. He was ready to cry again but he was afraid, and ran on and on and blew his fingers.

And he was miserable because he felt suddenly so lonely and terrified, and all at once, mercy on us! What was this again? People were standing in a crowd admiring. Behind a glass window there were three little dolls, dressed in red and green dresses, and exactly, exactly as though they were alive. Once was a little old man sitting and playing a big violin, the two others were standing close by and playing little violins, and nodding in time, and looking at one another, and their lips moved, they were speaking, actually speaking, only one couldn’t hear through the glass.

And at first the boy thought they were alive, and when he grasped that they were dolls he laughed. He had never seen such dolls before, and had no idea there were such dolls! All at once he fancied that some one caught at his smock behind: a wicked big boy was standing beside him and suddenly hit him on the head, snatched off his cap and tripped him up. The boy fell down on the ground, at once there was a shout, he was numb with fright, he jumped up and ran away. He ran, and not knowing where he was going, ran in at the gate of some one’s courtyard, and sat down behind a stack of wood: “They won’t find me here, besides it’s dark!”

He sat huddled up and was breathless from fright, and all at once, quite suddenly, he felt so happy: his hands and feet suddenly left off aching and grew so warm, as warm as though he were on a stove; then he shivered all over, then he gave a start, why, he must have been asleep. How nice to have a sleep here! “I’ll sit here a little and go and look at the dolls again,” said the boy, and smiled thinking of them. “Just as though they were alive! …” and suddenly he heard his mother singing over him. “Mammy, I am asleep; how nice it is to sleep here!”

“Come to my Christmas tree, little one,” a soft voice suddenly whispered over his head.

He thought that this was still his mother, but no, it was not she. Who it was calling him, he could not see, but someone bent over to him, and … and all at once—oh, what a bright light! Oh, what a Christmas tree! And yet it was not a fir tree, he had never seen a tree like that! Where was he now?

 

 

Everything was bright and shining, and all around him were dolls; but no, they were not dolls, they were little boys and girls, only so bright and shining. They all came flying round him, they all kissed him, took him and carried him along with them, and he was flying himself, and hesaw that his mother was looking at him and laughing joyfully. “Mammy, Mammy; oh, how nice it is here, Mammy!” and again he kissed the children and wanted to tell them at once of those dolls in the shop windows.

“Who are you, boys” who are you, girls?” he asked, laughing and admiring them.

“This is Christ’s Christmas tree,” they answered. “Christ always has a Christmas tree on this day, for the little children who have no tree of their own …” and he found out that all these little boys and girls were children just like himself; that some had been frozen in the baskets in which they had as babies been laid on the doorsteps of well-to-do Petersburg people, others had been boarded out with Finnish women by the Foundling and had been suffocated, others had died at their starved mothers’ breasts (in the Samara famine), others had died in the third-class railway carriages from the foul air:

Yet they were all here, they were all like angels about Christmas, and He was in the midst of them and held out His hands to them and blessed them and their sinful mothers. … and the mothers of these children stood on one side weeping; each one knew her boy or girl, and the children flew up to them and kissed them and wiped away their tears with their little hands, and begged them not to weep because they were so happy.

And down below in the morning the porter found the little dead body of the frozen child on the woodstack; they sought out his mother too. … she had died before him. They met before the Lord God in heaven.

 

Epilogue.

Fyodor Dostoevsky:

 

“Why have I made up such a story, so out of keeping with an ordinary diary, and a writer’s above all? And I promised two stories dealing with real events! But that is just it, I keep fancying that all this may have happened really—that is, what took place in the cellar and on the woodstack; but as for Christ’s Christmas tree, I cannot tell you whether that could have happened or not.”

 

Isn’t this a touching story?

Give thought to those more unfortunate than yourselves this Christmas.

A very merry Christmas to one and all.

 

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